Sunburn Quotes

“To be with her is a sin, to be without her is a tragedy.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“I knew she would be beautiful today, of course I knew, but this is unbelievable. Never in all my years of Christianity has there been talk of an angel like this. My God, she is not even walking, she floats around the room.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Susannah, Save this letter: it marks the moment that my life finally started. I have never felt closer to Heaven than I felt today on the road with you. I can only hope that it was real, and that you will not change your mind. Now I am away from you, I have never felt further from home, further from myself. Susannah, since the day I met you, I have wanted to let you know that you are a spill of gleaming gold on my otherwise dull and pointless world. Yours always, Lucy”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“This Summer is breaking my heart into pieces, to reveal a new and better heart that only beats for her.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“My own feelings are a hedge of briars that I can’t bring myself to touch. There are so many unhappy people, I just don’t want to find out that I am one of them. They walk among us, they touch you, and you become them. Introspection is like cyanide. Life is fine this way, ignorance is easy, I do what is easy. Doesn’t that make the most sense?”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Imagine a place where I could scream and not be heard, and fail and not be seen. A place where my insignificance would not hurt, because everybody would be insignificant.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Too late I realise that she has been the Summer of my life. What a slow and painful death this shall be.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Susannah, since the day I met you, I have wanted to let you know that you are a spill of gleaming gold on my otherwise dull and pointless world.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Must she eat like a dog? My cheeks redden, but I make no moves to conceal this, and in a wild moment of abandonment – something I have never known before – I think, I would be the microbes in the beef that her body seeks and destroys if it meant she would be paying me even the slightest bit of attention. The warmth and the wet of her mouth.

What a thought to think! How suddenly and vehemently I think it. And how hot my cheeks are. It makes perfect sense to want to be inside her mouth, to be torn to pieces by her; until I catch myself wanting it, and I am shocked, I am disgusted. I almost laugh at my own absurdity.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“My heart lurches, as if it wants to leave my awful body and go make a home in her.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Now is the time between birth and slaughter.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“I would drape my own soul over her body to protect her from eyes like mine.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“This Summer has been just a little too warm, the sun has been a little too bright. My thoughts have been a little bit too uncontrollable. And my emotions a little too humid. They only grow more humid. It all just gets stickier. Soon I think I will be unable to go even one day without lying on the grass with her.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Right now it seems as though I only have two options: either I can be who Mother expects me to be, or I can be whoever I want to be.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“It's hard not to be demolished by the thought of her because I have lived in a body that has loved her and eyes that have witnessed her. She is part of my muscles, my tissue. She is unforgettable.

Presumably, if she ever remembers me, it is only when she catches a perfume that is vaguely familiar, and it takes her hours to recognize it as mine.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Some parts of her I keep in my memory, others in my heart. This, I keep in my blood. And all night in bed, my blood slowly drags through my veins, bringing that moment to every piece of my body. It is beyond words. This isn't a feeling, it is a state of being.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“As much as I have given up on those things, I haven’t let them go, because for every way they are deplorable there is a way they are beautiful. I have an unshakeable faith in them all. I don’t know if there is anything to be done about it.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“She took her Eucharist before mine and I quietly apologised to Jesus for the downgrade from her tongue to mine.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“I am still waiting to find the boys intimidating. Often, I find my own girls more intimidating than them. Until I became the bridge between us all, I thought that I was a shy person, a sort of trembling leaf. Now I know that I am not a leaf, but a strong branch. I connect the blossom to the bark. Thanks to the girls’ weak hearts, I have realised my own bravery. Perhaps it’s just that I don’t give to swooning as easily as the others. These days the girls let themselves crumble when the boys come around. I’m hoping that I’m just late developing, and in a month or two, I’ll start to crumble as well. I can’t stand being on the outside of what everyone else is feeling.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Too late i realize she has been the Summer of my life. What a slow and painful death this shall be,”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“I want you to know that I appreciate the helpless position I have put you in, and although I keep it quiet, I am so devoted to you. Thank you for always being patient. I didn’t realise that I was ever unhappy until you made me this happy. I promise that I am proud of you. One day everybody will know how proud of you I am. Until then, Susannah, I hope that you will continue to grace me with your perfection.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“I am afraid that we might all be our mothers’ daughters.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Here, every breath is heard, every evil thought is known. It might be beautiful to look at, but it is abysmal to exist in; a sweet, sad dream. And while I could think of a million places that I would rather be, I fear that I will never have the nerve to leave. I fear that Crossmore is too deep in me, and I would not know how to exist elsewhere.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“And a naïve part of me thinks that since we have made it this far, we will make it forever. If we existed for even a second, we could exist eternally.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Life in the Summer goes slow, like one long, drawn-out fade of the sun. Doesn’t every day in Crossmore feel that way, at this tricky age?”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“Rita is in love with him, and still he keeps a piece of himself for me”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“I am mortified, I have been made mortal”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“It’s easy to imitate the way that they glide from children to women. All I need to do is dedicate myself to being passive and cute, and to this easy glide. As long as I don’t allow Mother’s words to filter into my head or give myself any room for introspection, my days will float by, vapid and simple. I can gossip and slack off and leave my choices to the democracy of the girls. When I am offered a cigarette, I’ll smoke it. When there is a stupid joke, I will laugh. When Maria asks, ‘Who do ye fancy?’ I will answer as if it is the most serious question in the world, because in a world as small as mine, it will be.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“The breath she lets out is so weighted, louder than the rushing of all the water in the ocean, it brings new dimensions to me. She is not numb. I could bring her back to life.”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn

“tricky age?”
― Chloe Michelle Howarth, Sunburn