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416 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 21, 2023
“I loved you once in a way I have never loved anyone.”
Emotion stung my nose and thickened my throat.
“But I love the boy I left behind. I don’t love the man. I could never love someone who has treated me as you’ve treated me.”
“You’ve always been mine to take care of. And today is the day I stop failing at it.”
“I have loved you most of my life, and I know with a certainty that awes and terrifies me in equal measure…that I will love you until my last breath. Maybe even then.”
“I loved you once in a way I have never loved anyone.”
Emotion stung my nose and thickened my throat.
“But I love the boy I left behind. I don’t love the man. I could never love someone who has treated me as you’ve treated me.”
Fuck, that hurt.
“I’m not yours to take care of.”
There was a moment of silence and then I felt his heat score along my back. His breath tickled my ear as he leaned in, scattering goose bumps down my spine. “You’ve always been mine to take care of. And today is the day I stop failing at it.”
“We are not the same people we were back then, and we’re holding on to the love between two kids who don’t exist anymore.”
“I don’t believe that,” he whispered.
“I can accept friendship…but if we’re going to be honest with each other from now on, I should tell you I intend to make you fall back in love with me.”
“If I can give you anything, it will just be friendship, Brodan,” I’d said, my voice shaking.
… “We both know that’s bullshit. It will always be more than friendship between us. Let’s finally stop lying about that.”
“Are you scared, Brodan?”
The fear tightened like a fist around my throat, and I could only nod.
“Me too,” she admitted.
Then she moved in my arms, turning to straddle me. Cupping my nape in her hands, she whispered, “I want to hold on, though. Will you hold on with me?”
In answer, I wrapped my arms around and pulled her close, buying her face in the crook of her neck. I’d hold on for fucking forever now.
“I have loved you most of my life, and I know with a certainty that awes and terrifies me in equal measure…that I will love you until my last breath. Maybe even then.”
‘Once upon a time, Monroe Sinclair was so vital to me, I would have protected her against anyone who tried to hurt her, no matter what it took to make her safe and happy.
How was it possible that I could be the source of so much of her pain?’
‘Those pale eyes locked onto mine. “I’m not judging you, Sunset.”
The nickname tore through me. “Brodan—”
“I should have been taking care of you,” he said with gruff self-reproach.
I stiffened. “I take care of myself. And anyway”—I turned to the closet—“I’m not yours to take care of.”
There was a moment of silence and then I felt his heat score along my back. His breath tickled my ear as he leaned in, scattering goose bumps down my spine. “You’ve always been mine to take care of. And today is the day I stop failing at it.”’
“Ever since that day, I couldn’t separate loving you from wanting you. And I knew that if I gave into those feelings, you would become everything to me. Because you just fit, Roe. You fit me. I refuse to be that scared wee boy who didn’t realize what you meant to me … you were already everything to me. You always will be. Eighteen years apart just numbed the empty ache you left behind. But now you’re here, in front of me, and I know that you’re my missing piece. No one will ever fit me like you do. No one.”
“I won’t push. But I want you to promise to come to me the moment you’re ready to face it.”
I looked away, staring out at the water. “Let’s not make any promises to each other.”
Feeling his cool fingers touch my chin, I allowed him to turn my face back to his. “We have a problem here, Sunset. Because I want to make all our promises to each other.”