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348 pages
First published January 12, 2016
“You’re the best thing to ever happen to me twice.”
“You broke and left, but then you came back. Because you were meant to be mine.”
"I love nobody and nothing. The way I love you.”
“You’re still the one I can tell anything. You’re still the one, when my sentences run out of words, you finish them by looking at me. But at the same time, you’re surprising me. I still get to discover you. I love who you’ve become. And I love that who I’ve become still works with you.”
“I love you so much,” he said. But his voice was hoarse and the first two words got lost. You so much. It settled into his heart like a creed. He said it again. “You so much.” She turned her head up to him. “So much you,” she said.”
I have a confession. So, please allow me to go on a tangent.
Here it is. I'm in love with the idea of Will and Erik because while you all were reading the epic love between Erik and Daisy, I saw only Erik and Will. AM I ALONE OUT HERE?!!“You keep staring at me like that and we’ll have to take it inside,” Will said.
Erik’s face was warm around his smile. “What happened in Germany?”
Will blew his breath out, looking up at the skies. “Long version or short version?”
“Short.”“Short version. I lost my shit and went into therapy. And in therapy, I finally admitted I’d been in love with you in college. James was simply a means to…divert it elsewhere.”“What’s the long version,” he finally said.
Will was staring off again at nothing, but a corner of his mouth went up. “I missed you,” he said. “And this time I diverted it with a guy who looked like you.”
OMG. I swooned. I cried. I fucking bawled. That, right there, got me in the feels like nothing else in this brilliant awe-inspiring book. I fell in love again with Will. Gaaahhhh....
But as with everything Suanne Laqueur- or as I call her, Her Royal Sneakiness -, she went and made me fall in love with Erik and Daisy all over. Those 2 hold my heart and forever they shall have it.
For those of you still reading this review, let me tell you about this book. First off, the writing and prose were impeccable. shout out to SL. Thanks so much for gifting us with such lyrical prose. I gorged on the metaphors; the allegories, the imagery. All brilliant and superb. You, Laqueur, are a word seductress.
On to the story. Here To Stay picks up right where The Man I Love left off, with Erik having finally reconnected with Daisy after 12 long years. NOW, that is how you do a second-chance reunion folks. That is how it's meant to be done! Allow me to take you back to that EPIC reunion (in TMIL):<<“Trembling all over, he looked at her.Well, damn. I wanted to smash them together, put them in my purse and hide them in an attic. Forever. These two were born to be in love with each other.
Trembling just as much, she smiled. “Welcome to Canada.”
He swallowed. “My new favorite place on earth.”
Carefully they moved into each other’s arms. Erik held her, paralyzed with feeling. He wanted to crush her to his chest, seize her tight and never let go. He mustn’t. Not yet. He held.”
And then it just gets better. They reconnect and heaven and earth are moved to ensure these two stay connected. Erik moves to Canada to be with Daisy and we get to see him become the Erik we love. Their connection was palpable, almost electrifying, definitely breathtaking. I loved how he loved Daisy. Unconditionally and with no reservations. Gosh, we all should be loved liked that. Best book boyfriend! And get this, they get M.A.R.R.I.E.D! Yessssssss!
Interspersed within their renewed love story was the backstory of Erik's family tree and you know, for the love of me, it worked. Don't ask me why knowing who was who on the Fiskare family tree was important. It just worked. Laqueur takes us back in time and we learn so much more about Erik's history. Why his father left. His cousins, aunts etc. All brilliantly interwoven.
I suppose Laqueur wanted to lay that bird to rest before bringing on a new generation of Fiskares, because, smack in the middle of all these Erik and Daisy finally get pregnant. And this is where Laqueur broke me and I feared I would forever remain broken. But oh no, she blew gently on my tears, brushed me up and gave me not one, but two reasons to smile again.
Erik and Daisy's love story is epic and even as the book concludes, there is still so much left on the horizon for these two. I giggled and quietly powered down my e-reader, taking the time to savor the joy inside of me. Really, I wanted to hug SL and pat her on the back with the words: "you're all right kid, you are all right".
p.s. Now, I need to find me an epic M/M love story, to replace the one SL denied me with Erik and Will. But, I forgive you Suanne!
p.p.s Shout out to my friend, Robin Hill, for recommending this series. Thanks, babe.
She was a hundred times more beautiful. A thousand times more thrilling. – Erik?
I didn’t know how to get past it. I didn’t want to get past it. I was too tired. I had no fight in me left anymore. David took the last of it. He took you and he took my will to keep going. I felt used and useless. I told Will I couldn’t pretend it never happened. I couldn’t get back with you and act like we weren’t changed. No matter what I did or said or forgave or forgot, from that day on you and I were different. And I hated it. I didn’t want us to be different. If it couldn’t be us, it was no use to me. So I left.” – Erik
“My ex-wife is black.”
“Shut up.”
“Hand to God.”
“You really went to the opposite pole.”
“It was funny when it happened though. I went so long thinking my heart was shut down for good, but I came across her in the theater on day. This little voice inside started tugging at my sleeve. Hey. Girl. Look. See? Girl. Pretty girl. Fetch.”
“I hear you, I couldn’t believe when I felt attracted to another woman after Lucky. Anyway, back to her being black… What was that like?”
Erik shrugged. “You still want to?”
You mean am I still attracted to men? Sure. But I’m married now. I don’t fuck around with either gender.”
“I just wondered if the itch was there. I wasn’t implying you scratched it.”
“Well then, yes,” Will said. “I do still think about it. I’m still attracted to it and, on occasion, I outright want it. Wanting isn’t having.”
"Don't leave me."
"I can't, I'll never breathe again."
"A strange thing to find a lost lover in your hands again. Like finding your childhood baseball glove in an attic box of memories. You're sure it won't fit. But the heat of your palm, a flex and a bend and it knows you. It remembers you."
"I missed all this. She had a life all these years I know nothing about."-ErikIn Here to Stay, Erik experiences an extreme amount of regret. Time has passed and Daisy has had lovers, friends, inside jokes, heartbreak, and experienced all of the mundane aspects of life without HIM! Erik faces an internal battle of loving Daisy and being swallowed by the demons of his past.
"It was done then. It was on him then. The dam of his heart broke. Then it was done. Then it began."Daisy, an ethereal spark of life, is so happy to have Erik back by her side. Although she still harbors regret for the choices she made in the past, she clings to him and lavishes in every moment.
"They wanted everything at once, their kiss fitting around words and words smashing between their lips and tongues."Together, Erik and Daisy find their way back into each other's arms. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes the past love, that had faded, is reborn into a new refined love that is mature and runs deep. The characters experience growth through their journey to forgiveness. In true Laquer fashion, every emotion is felt to the core. Every detail of every single moment is masterfully displayed. Additionally, the secondary characters continue to play a critical role in the plot development. Erik is reunited with his best friend Will and must seek healing after years of being apart. Although the journey is sweet, there is still room for heartbreak. As in life, every beautiful moment can only be savored when we have experienced loss and pain.
"I didn't come back to fight you. I came back to fight for you."
"I just want us. I want her to myself. I want to be the center of her universe and not share her with anyone. Ever."Told in Erik's POV, Here to Stay is a beautifully crafted story. The steady pacing coupled with the complex characters kept me fully engaged the entire read. There is a good balance between exploring the "present" relationships of the characters and finding closure from the "past" events that took place in The Man I Love. The dialogue is rich and flows smoothly from page to page. Anyone who invests in this series will be forever changed.
"You don't have to do it good. You just have to do it."
"I love nobody and nothing. The way I love you."
Her (Laqueur) goal is to create a new kind of emotionally-intelligent romance that appeals to the emotions of all readers, crossing gender, age and genre.
“Do I feel the same?” Daisy asked, her voice a silken caress.
After twelve years, Erik thought, of course not. He had loved a girl. It was a woman’s body up against him now, with the heft of wisdom and the weight of experience. He ran his fingers up her backbone and felt all the bits of new fused steel, overlaid with the strong assurance in her muscles and the soft aplomb of her skin. She was a hundred times more beautiful. A thousand times more thrilling.
And as her blue-green eyes stared into his, he was keenly aware of her vulnerability.
“You feel more,” he said, his hands moving along her body, trying to remember how she felt when he last touched her.
“I still trust you,” he said.It would have been an easy thing for Laqueur to tread the path of Easy Acceptance Happy Ever After, to lead our lovers down the road of least resistance, but then she wouldn't be the author I've come to admire greatly over the last few weeks. Laqueur works hard to write from a base-plate of truth and though her words may have a fanciful, mystical resonance, her stories are nevertheless built using solid blocks of concrete plot
Will rolled his lips in, nodding. “I tell you anything. It’s so easy. In my weird head, out my big mouth. And rarely do I worry you’ll misunderstand me. I could always be myself with you. It’s not a thing to be dismissed.” He glanced up. “You know?”
“I know,” Erik said. And they looked at each other.
As an acceptable amount of eye contact came and went, Erik felt the air shimmer and tighten. Just as it did when he stared at Daisy.
The night pulled away.
He felt his chest turn out.
Everything in creation seemed to look back over its shoulder at them.
“What?” Will’s mouth formed the word with barely a sound.
Erik shook his head a little. “Nothing,” he said, equally noiseless.
Creation took a step in. Interested.
“I haven’t been in the game a while,” Will said slowly. “But I think we may be having a moment.” The words were joking, but his voice was laced with a vulnerable heaviness. And his eyes didn’t move from Erik’s.
They stared. The weighted history of their years sat on its heels, motionless.
Lost fish.This is a book I will be re-reading time and time again; it's just one of those, ya know? There is always something to rediscover, as I did this second time, a turn of phrase not picked up before that give new meaning to a passage.
We’re here. We feel terrible. These things happen and they are terrible things to bear. We bore them. We know. We’re here.
You’re not alone. You found your tribe. You will survive this.
“I can’t,” he whispered, knowing he could, but wishing with every fiber of his being he didn’t have to.
“You can,” Will said. “You don’t have to do it well. You just have to do it.”
“All right,” Erik said, standing up. He held out his hands to Will. “Give it back.”
Will stood up and made a pouring gesture into Erik’s palms. Then he hugged tight and kissed Erik’s head. “I love you,” he said. “I’ll be here the whole time.”
He reached to touch the hollow of her throat where the gold fish and the pearl nestled. “You’re the best thing to ever happen to me twice.”I couldn't have put it any better..
"You so much."