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Here's my full video review! The Tiger's Watch was an enjoyable read with an interesting set of characters and intricate world building. I was excited t Here's my full video review! The Tiger's Watch was an enjoyable read with an interesting set of characters and intricate world building. I was excited to receive this ARC through Netgalley as I had heard so many great things about Julia Ember as a writer but hadn't read anything by her yet. I was interested to see the world she has created and how she would portray the bond between the inhabitor and their bonded animal. There was a lot packed into this book even though it had just 180 pages. Even though the world building is overall well done and interesting, I still found myself confused about certain aspects of the world and plot. There's some aspects that I simply didn't understand and others that I still have lots of questions about. I don't really understand the history of this fantastical setting and feel like if there'd been more on that, it would have been easier to understand. You can tell Julia Ember put a lot of thought into the world building but it seemed almost too complex for a 180 page novel. As this is the first book in a trilogy, I'm hoping we get lots more on that in the sequels. I think my favourite part of this novel is definitely the bond between inhabitor and animal. I think the way Ember described that bond was wonderful. I don't wanna give much away but I think it's a concept that, even though it's been done before in similar ways, Ember puts her very own touch to. While there is a little bit of romance in the book and Tashi has interesting relationships with different characters, the relationship they had with their animal and how it was described, was by far my favourite out of all of them. The main character Tashi is genderfluid and uses they/them pronouns. I can't say much about the representation as I am cisgender and I would strongly encourage you to seek out and boost ownvoices reviews for this book. I liked that Tashi's identity got explained in the first 5% of the book. Even though it takes place in a Fantasy world, which often makes writers not want to use labels and descriptions we use today, it is clearly stated on page that Tashi is non-binary. While there is some misgendering happening in the beginning of the book when Tashi gets introduced to lots of new characters, no one ever misgenders Tashi after they've stated their preferred pronouns. Even confronted with opposing sides, Tashi's identity is respected and never used against them in any way. Overall I think it is an enjoyable read with a lot of potential. I can definitely see myself continuing this series. I think there is still so much more to explore about the world but also the characters and their relationships. Please feel free to correct me if I made any mistakes in this review as far as labels/pronouns etc. go! Merged review: Here's my full video review! The Tiger's Watch was an enjoyable read with an interesting set of characters and intricate world building. I was excited to receive this ARC through Netgalley as I had heard so many great things about Julia Ember as a writer but hadn't read anything by her yet. I was interested to see the world she has created and how she would portray the bond between the inhabitor and their bonded animal. There was a lot packed into this book even though it had just 180 pages. Even though the world building is overall well done and interesting, I still found myself confused about certain aspects of the world and plot. There's some aspects that I simply didn't understand and others that I still have lots of questions about. I don't really understand the history of this fantastical setting and feel like if there'd been more on that, it would have been easier to understand. You can tell Julia Ember put a lot of thought into the world building but it seemed almost too complex for a 180 page novel. As this is the first book in a trilogy, I'm hoping we get lots more on that in the sequels. I think my favourite part of this novel is definitely the bond between inhabitor and animal. I think the way Ember described that bond was wonderful. I don't wanna give much away but I think it's a concept that, even though it's been done before in similar ways, Ember puts her very own touch to. While there is a little bit of romance in the book and Tashi has interesting relationships with different characters, the relationship they had with their animal and how it was described, was by far my favourite out of all of them. The main character Tashi is genderfluid and uses they/them pronouns. I can't say much about the representation as I am cisgender and I would strongly encourage you to seek out and boost ownvoices reviews for this book. I liked that Tashi's identity got explained in the first 5% of the book. Even though it takes place in a Fantasy world, which often makes writers not want to use labels and descriptions we use today, it is clearly stated on page that Tashi is non-binary. While there is some misgendering happening in the beginning of the book when Tashi gets introduced to lots of new characters, no one ever misgenders Tashi after they've stated their preferred pronouns. Even confronted with opposing sides, Tashi's identity is respected and never used against them in any way. Overall I think it is an enjoyable read with a lot of potential. I can definitely see myself continuing this series. I think there is still so much more to explore about the world but also the characters and their relationships. 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This books is so so so SO special. It's now been a month since I've read this book and I still haven't found any proper words for it. I love this so muc This books is so so so SO special. It's now been a month since I've read this book and I still haven't found any proper words for it. I love this so much because this felt like a big blanket that I could just snuggle up in. The writing style is just so beautiful and mellow. This book talked about so many things, friendship, love, sexual fluidity, gender fluidity, faith and so much more and all of it resonated with me. This book touched me so much, made me emotional and it was a very "personal" experience. But I also think that this is just such a beautiful Contemporary novel that a lot of people will enjoy. If any of the themes I mentioned above speak to you, you should absolutely pick it up! Merged review: This books is so so so SO special. It's now been a month since I've read this book and I still haven't found any proper words for it. I love this so much because this felt like a big blanket that I could just snuggle up in. The writing style is just so beautiful and mellow. This book talked about so many things, friendship, love, sexual fluidity, gender fluidity, faith and so much more and all of it resonated with me. This book touched me so much, made me emotional and it was a very "personal" experience. But I also think that this is just such a beautiful Contemporary novel that a lot of people will enjoy. If any of the themes I mentioned above speak to you, you should absolutely pick it up! ...more |
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DNF @ 36%. Honestly I almost feel like I already wasted too much time on this. But I kept thinking "ah it's short and I'm sure it'll get more interesting soon". Over a third into it I can say.. no, it did not. It's just really booooring. The theatre aspect is falling flat because I feel like we see a lot of "I just had a really horrible rehearsal" or "The way she acted was so sincere" (these are made up quotes, whatever, you get it) but not the real PROCESS of acting and rehearsing which is what I wanted from it. And don't get me started on the romance. Over a third into it we're still at the exact same point we started at? Both like each other AND THEY KNOW IT and they're already involved but they don't wanna date because they don't wanna get hurt... guurl, your ass is already in too deep, you're gonna get hurt anyway. JUST MAKE OUT ALREADY. Overall nothing about this book is exactly BAD (so far) but it was just really, REALLY boring. Merged review: DNF @ 36%. Honestly I almost feel like I already wasted too much time on this. But I kept thinking "ah it's short and I'm sure it'll get more interesting soon". Over a third into it I can say.. no, it did not. It's just really booooring. The theatre aspect is falling flat because I feel like we see a lot of "I just had a really horrible rehearsal" or "The way she acted was so sincere" (these are made up quotes, whatever, you get it) but not the real PROCESS of acting and rehearsing which is what I wanted from it. And don't get me started on the romance. Over a third into it we're still at the exact same point we started at? Both like each other AND THEY KNOW IT and they're already involved but they don't wanna date because they don't wanna get hurt... guurl, your ass is already in too deep, you're gonna get hurt anyway. JUST MAKE OUT ALREADY. Overall nothing about this book is exactly BAD (so far) but it was just really, REALLY boring. ...more |
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♦ Drum Roll, Please was a truly delightful read with a lot of powerful messages packed into it. I usually don’t really read Middle Gr ♦ Video Review ♦ Drum Roll, Please was a truly delightful read with a lot of powerful messages packed into it. I usually don’t really read Middle Grade but because of the themes of this book I felt drawn to it and was excited to give it a chance. And while the themes of this book were clearly Middle Grade, this really read like a lower YA. It did not feel juvenile at all and I can definitely recommend it to YA readers who are interested in the themes. The summer camp aspect was wonderfully portrayed and brought me right back to my time in summer camps. This feeling of a space where everything feels possible in just a small amount of time came across so well. Even if you’ve never been to summer camp, you will get a good feeling for it. Melly’s struggles with believing in herself and her abilities were also really well done. The way she feels like she doesn’t deserve to even be at camp and doesn’t really know her place without a band was realistic and written in a way that made it easy to understand where she was coming from. The development of Melly's relationship with Adeline was wonderful. I think it was so cute when Melly had that moment where she realized why she had such intense feelings about Adeline. It was also great to see Melly in a questioning position but Adeline as someone who is 100% confident in what she wants and who she is. In general this had so many great friendships. I think the struggles that Melly had with her best friend Olivia were so relatable and realistic. I like when books portray the struggles of best friends growing up and going through puberty together. I think it's an issue in so many kids and teens lives that gets undermined pretty quickly. Overall I had an amazing time while reading Drum Roll, Please. I could mention so many more moments and things that I really loved but I think you get the picture. If you're interested in summer camps, music and coming of age, this is absolutely the book for you, whether you read Middle Grade or not! ♦ Booktube Channel ♦ Twitter ♦ Instagram ♦ I received an ARC of this through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! Merged review: ♦ Video Review ♦ Drum Roll, Please was a truly delightful read with a lot of powerful messages packed into it. I usually don’t really read Middle Grade but because of the themes of this book I felt drawn to it and was excited to give it a chance. And while the themes of this book were clearly Middle Grade, this really read like a lower YA. It did not feel juvenile at all and I can definitely recommend it to YA readers who are interested in the themes. The summer camp aspect was wonderfully portrayed and brought me right back to my time in summer camps. This feeling of a space where everything feels possible in just a small amount of time came across so well. Even if you’ve never been to summer camp, you will get a good feeling for it. Melly’s struggles with believing in herself and her abilities were also really well done. The way she feels like she doesn’t deserve to even be at camp and doesn’t really know her place without a band was realistic and written in a way that made it easy to understand where she was coming from. The development of Melly's relationship with Adeline was wonderful. I think it was so cute when Melly had that moment where she realized why she had such intense feelings about Adeline. It was also great to see Melly in a questioning position but Adeline as someone who is 100% confident in what she wants and who she is. In general this had so many great friendships. I think the struggles that Melly had with her best friend Olivia were so relatable and realistic. I like when books portray the struggles of best friends growing up and going through puberty together. I think it's an issue in so many kids and teens lives that gets undermined pretty quickly. Overall I had an amazing time while reading Drum Roll, Please. I could mention so many more moments and things that I really loved but I think you get the picture. If you're interested in summer camps, music and coming of age, this is absolutely the book for you, whether you read Middle Grade or not! ♦ Booktube Channel ♦ Twitter ♦ Instagram ♦ I received an ARC of this through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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This is basically a whitewashed retelling of Aladdin! This is why I have decided not to go any further into my thoughts on this book. Ultimately I wou
This is basically a whitewashed retelling of Aladdin! This is why I have decided not to go any further into my thoughts on this book. Ultimately I wouldn't recommend it! I would love to link a review by a POC so if you have done a review of it & would be ok with me linking it here, please let me know! Thanks to Netgalley for providing me with an early review copy! Merged review: This is basically a whitewashed retelling of Aladdin! This is why I have decided not to go any further into my thoughts on this book. Ultimately I wouldn't recommend it! I would love to link a review by a POC so if you have done a review of it & would be ok with me linking it here, please let me know! Thanks to Netgalley for providing me with an early review copy! ...more |
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Update February 2018: I mean my DNF review still stands except I now don't feel bad about disliking it anymore. Tristina Wright is a trash person. DNF Update February 2018: I mean my DNF review still stands except I now don't feel bad about disliking it anymore. Tristina Wright is a trash person. DNF at 37%. It's not you, it's me.. I think? I just absolutely cannot get into this at all. I feel horrible because this is such a diverse read and I was really looking forward to it.. but I just don't think anybody is gonna benefit from me trying to force my way through this book right now. Maybe I'll give it another try when the sequel comes out? I just feel like over a third into this I still don't know enough about the characters. So much action has already happened and I feel like the characters kinda fall flat because of it.. like I even have a hard time trying to remember who is who. I think it's so hard to differentiate between the different POVs too. I was just not having an enjoyable reading experience at all :( I received an ARC through Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. Merged review: Update February 2018: I mean my DNF review still stands except I now don't feel bad about disliking it anymore. Tristina Wright is a trash person. DNF at 37%. It's not you, it's me.. I think? I just absolutely cannot get into this at all. I feel horrible because this is such a diverse read and I was really looking forward to it.. but I just don't think anybody is gonna benefit from me trying to force my way through this book right now. Maybe I'll give it another try when the sequel comes out? I just feel like over a third into this I still don't know enough about the characters. So much action has already happened and I feel like the characters kinda fall flat because of it.. like I even have a hard time trying to remember who is who. I think it's so hard to differentiate between the different POVs too. I was just not having an enjoyable reading experience at all :( I received an ARC through Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. ...more |
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[image] “It really did seem like some monstrous force was suddenly rampaging through my life. I didn’t understand it, but I knew the name: Sash[image] “It really did seem like some monstrous force was suddenly rampaging through my life. I didn’t understand it, but I knew the name: Sasha Masha.” Sasha Masha is a really moving ownvoices novel about exploring gender identity and understanding who you are. Before I go into this, I just wanna say that I will be using he/him pronouns in this review, as that is what is used throughout the entire novel and because pronouns do not necessarily equal gender, I want to respect that. I will not be using Sasha Masha's deadname though, even though it is frequently used, as he mentions several times throughout the novel that Sasha Masha is the name he wants to be referred to as. There isn't much to say in regards to the plot of this novel but it is astounding how much was packed into this short novel. Really, in a lot of aspects it just reads like your good old coming-of-age novel, except it has the added element of Sasha Masha being trans and we follow Sasha Masha as he is figuring this out during all the other teenage experience shenanigans. “But something was wrong. There was a high wall inside of me, and it made me angry, it made me stuck; there was a self on the other side—was this, now, the thing I’d failed to see? That in my heart of hearts I wasn’t a boy after all?” I loved Sasha Masha's journey and I thought that it was very powerful and moving. There is a lot of questioning and confusion going on in Sasha Masha's inner monologue but it is so beautiful to follow him on the path to understanding his own gender identity and accepting who he is. I especially loved the way the author approached Sasha Masha realizing he is trans, where he kinda has this persona of Sasha Masha and knows that that is who he wants to be and then slowly grows into it, but also learns that that person has been him all along, he just had to make sure to really embrace that part. “I could only think of that picture, and I started to wonder whether I really just missed myself. You miss yourself? How could you miss yourself? You’re right here.” There are definitely people in Sasha Masha's life that struggle with him accepting his own identity but for the most part, he has a really wonderful support system in both old and new friends. Especially seeing the queer support system that build up around him throughout this novel was an incredibly heart-warming aspect. These people not only accept him exactly as he is but they also support his journey, both with trying to help him figure his identity out but also just being patient with him and never pushing anything. This novel also had several side-characters of colour and I very much enjoyed that there was a brief discussion about how a lot of queer riots were led by people of colour. This also introduced some discussions between a younger and older generation of queer people, which is something we so rarely get to see. “We were like two pieces of rope that had been frequently knotted; even when we were separate, our bodies held the shape of the knot we made together.” Mabel, Sasha Masha's best friend who ended up moving away, especially stands out as a side-character. Even though they can only communicate via text and calls now, Mabel is still there for all of Sasha Masha's journey and being accepting of him at all times. I loved seeing moments from their friendship in the past and seeing Mabel always being an unapologetically queer presence in Sasha Masha's life too. Their friendship is just incredibly well written and Mabel as a character within the book alone adds so much comfort. “All of a sudden I felt far away from my parents. This road might take me places they would never go.” I also found the relationship between Sasha Masha and his parents a very interesting aspect and I definitely wish we had gotten to see more of it because it was quite a complex relationship. They definitely care and worry a lot about Sasha Masha, especially as they're starting to realize that something is going on and his behaviour changes, but they're never actually there for their child to figure out the root of what is going on. Throughout the story you are definitely wondering if Sasha Masha's parents will accept him being trans. Long before he has come to the realization that he is trans, he is already wondering what his parents will think of the self-discovery journey that he is on. And I definitely liked this portrayal of Sasha Masha's relationship with his parents and thought it added an important aspect to the story. “The world was Real. This couch was Real, Murphy was Real, the light and the bookshelves and the creatures and the sounds of the city moving around me—they were all Real. Like it or not, the world is Real, and whoever we are, we are part of the world.” I definitely think that overall a lot of the aspects in this novel were kept quite brief but that is very much due to this being a very short novel too. I would've loved to see a lot of the things talked about within this story to be discussed even more. But ultimately, this showed us a glimpse of Sasha Masha's life and his journey to not only understanding their own identity but also to get more comfortable within queer spaces and understanding and connecting with other queer people. And I feel grateful to have gotten such a glimpse and I know that his story will stay with me for a while. Finishing this novel just gave me a really hopeful and positive feeling. And I know that there is lots more good things to come for Sasha Masha and people with similar journeys. After reading this story there is just such a wonderful, reassuring feeling, knowing they will find their path and people who unconditionally love and accept them. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “Reading will make you brilliant but writing will make you infinite.” Juliet Takes a Breath is a graphic novel adaptation of the nov [image] “Reading will make you brilliant but writing will make you infinite.” Juliet Takes a Breath is a graphic novel adaptation of the novel with the same title and unpacks so many different themes, from white feminism and intersectionality to finding your place in queer spaces, heartbreak and coming out. At the center of this story is Juliet, who moves from the Bronx to Portland, Oregon, to start an internship with a feminist author called Harlowe Brisbane. During this internship she gets introduced to a super diverse group of queer people and finds a queer space to belong for the first time. As time goes on, Juliet becomes more comfortable within queer spaces but also learns that Harlowe Brisbane is not everything that she had hoped she would be and represent for her. “They didn't even know me and it was like they loved me. I almost couldn't accept it. Like the ache of Lainie had me numb way deep in my spirit too.” There is truly so much to say about Juliet Takes a Breath because it unpacked so many different themes but I thought it was all done incredibly well. I haven't read the original novel but this graphic novel had me so hooked and so in love, that it made me want to read it, even though I now obviously know the basic storyline. But it just made me so intriguied to see how the novel unpacks all of these issues because if the graphic novel already did it so well in such a small amount of pages, then surely the novel will be doing an ever greater job at it! I also just adored all the characters in this novel so much and I would want to read more about them. This novel features an incredibly diverse cast of characters! Most of them are queer and/or genderqueer, we have Black characters, Latinx characters and a biracial (White & Korean) love interest. Juliet herself is Puerto Rican, fat and a lesbian. She also has asthma and is shown using her inhaler on page. “And you get to decide what you believe and how you worship yourself.” Even though Juliet has known for a long time that she is gay and feels quite comfortable and confident in that identity, and even has been in a relationship for a year, she hasn't really been part of any queer community and she really finds a wonderful support system with these people. The story actually starts with Juliet coming out as a lesbian to her family and while a lot of the members of her family are dismissive at first, most of them are accepting. But Juliet's mother does not accept her sexuality and calls it "just a phase" and thinks that Juliet just needs to find the right guy. It was a storyline that obviously many queer people can relate to and that I thought was well done overall. I really loved Juliet's relationship with her brother, even though we only got to read about it briefly and later on in the novel we meet Juliet's cousin and aunt who live in Miami, who were also such wonderful characters to read about and had a big impact on Juliet's journey too. “Juliet Milagro Palante. I love you like the seas love the moon. Whatever you are, whoever you love, I'm here.” One of the biggest themes of this graphic novel was white feminism and the saviour complex that white people have. This is definitely a story that is not always a fun and happy read, it can be quite uncomfortable at times. But it shows a reality of our world and I really appreciated that the author was so blunt about it. This graphic novel talks about casual racism, it talks about how reverse racism doesn't exist, it's about how white people will so often overstep and speak over people of colour when they are trying to help. And it's also about holding people accountable. All those aspects, while brief, due to the nature of this format, were so well done and surely very eye-opening for many people. On top of all that, Juliet Takes a Breath also has themes of different kinds of romantic relationships and how self-love plays an important role in that. We see that the relationship that Juliet is in in the beginning of the story does not seem very healthy and it shows just how important communication is in a relationship. But within the course of this novel, Juliet starts dating someone else and it is a really beautiful development. There is also a great f/f sex scene with a big emphasis on consent and masturbation is also explored in this graphcic novel. Neither of thoses scenes are explicit but make it very clear what's happening. “Kira felt like home. Like a million street bikes zipping down the bronx river parkway and popping endos under the elevated trains. Dinosaur-sized butterflies fluttered in my stomach.” And of course there is the beautiful art style, that I truly loved and that only added so much love for this graphic novel for me. I loved the line art and how much very clear body diversity there was with these characters. It also has a very warm and pleasant colour palette, that just made it a very pleasing reading experience. “Gender is a trip. Limitless like the universe.” Overall, as you might be able to tell from this review, I truly loved this graphic novel and cannot wait to dive into the novel soon because I am just that in love with the characters and themes in this story! Trigger and Content Warnings for homophobia, racism, fatshaming, sexual harassment, smoking (weed), use of d-slur (in a reclaiming nature). Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Netgalley in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “It’s freezing and dark because this is how it is with us; this is how we connected, so it’s fitting that this is where we wind up, kis[image] “It’s freezing and dark because this is how it is with us; this is how we connected, so it’s fitting that this is where we wind up, kissing each other like we are both hungry.” The Liar's Guide to the Night Sky is YA Survival Story that had some very promising aspects to it but ultimately ended up not delivering when it came to unpacking them. The story starts with a group of teens, most of them cousins, who all got together because of a sickness in the family, sneaking out to an abandoned ski slope, when they get hit with a sudden mudslide and are stranded on this mountain with nobody knowing where they are. Our main character Hallie decides that she doesn't wanna sit around and wait for help but to go and search for it herself. Jonah, her cousin Jaxon's best friend, joins her and we follow them on their survival journey but also them getting to know each other better. I have read two other books by Brianna Shrum that I really loved, so I was very excited to pick this novel up, even if it was slightly out of my comfort zone, as I do not usually reach for (Contemporary) Survival stories. But I was excited by the diversity aspects in this story and my love for the author's earlier books, so I wanted to give it a chance. Sadly, I did not end up being very satisfied with this novel and the elements in it. I think that there are a lot of intriguing aspects to it but ultimately the things that I would've wanted to read more about were either not talked about enough or just didn't get the on-page time they deserved. “We touch each other, under the black sky and a million stars that shine a million miles away, stars that make up the backdrop of this crucial twenty-four hours, this life-altering turn of a night, and that do not give a single shit about us. We are not imprinted in the memory of the stars. Anyway, it’s the vastness of the black that’s imprinted in mine.” One of the very promising aspects of this story are the complex family dynamics that are portrayed. Hallie lived away from the rest of her big family for a long time and feels out of place in between them, even when she wants to be part of this cousin group so very badly. She struggles with not getting inside jokes and just feeling like she doesn't know everyone as well as they all know each other. On top of that, whenever there were family gatherings in the past, it seemed like her parents wanted to mostly keep her away from the rest of the family and making her feel like they would have a bad influence on her. One aspect that plays into this is racism, which absolutely did not get unpacked enough in regards to Hallie's parents. We find out about a conversation between Hallie's dad and his brother, that Hallie overheard when she was younger, where they are having a fight and Hallie's uncle asks if this is about him being married to a Black woman. And in that moment Hallie even thinks to herself that her uncle is probably right. But that is the most that this ever really gets talked about. I know that it can be hard to challenge your parents about their racism, especially when it has to do with family relationships and it being something that you think might be out of your lane. But apart from the fact that Hallie is acknowledging this and being upset by it, this is never really brought up again, even by anybody else. And it is not like Hallie is the picture-perfect daughter in this novel who never says anything against her parents.. the fact that the racism is never brought up by her, was really disappointing. It seemed like the author was making a point later on in the novel about how the main character in general didn't seem to be super well informed about (anti-Black) racism, when she has a conversation about the racism in Denver and other "liberal-leaning" cities with Jaxon, who is Afro-Latinx and studies Political science. And while that obviously would be a very valid point to make, especially considering Hallie's parents, there was not enough substance to this conversation and, again, the topic is never really brought up again when it comes to her parents and the fact that they have basically completely separated themselves from the rest of the family due to racism. Plus, the conversation ends with Hallie making heart eyes at Jason because he is so passionate about fighting racism... instead of her actually processing what he said. And the topic gets brought up again later, when Jaxon tells Hallie about his dad having been in jail for 10 years for smoking weed and how that is a systematic issue that many Black men have to face. All Hallie has to say about this is that it “fucking sucks”. I am going to talk about the Black character doing all the explaining to the white character later in the review but the thing is that there is just such a wasted opportunity here. The least Hallie could've done is to really listen and learn and to later on confront her parents about their racism and how it kept her from being close to her family. It honestly feels like Hallie doesn't take anything away from this conversation whatsoever. “When he pulls me toward him with the smallest pressure in the tips of his fingers and kisses me. It is so slow that it fucking hurts. I think that maybe I’ve never kissed anyone in my life.” Now while I don't think that the racism was handled very well, I think that a lot of the representation was done much better. There is Hallie being Jewish (which is ownvoices) and I liked that this novel used lots of Jewish terms and talked about traditions, while also acknowledging that there is a lot of layers to being Jewish and practising (or not practising) Judaism. Jonah and Hallie also have a really great conversation about romantic and sexual attraction. Hallie identifies as bisexual and Jonah identifies as pansexual and aromantic and the aromantic and bisexual representation is an ownvoices aspect. Now while I cannot speak for any of these identities, I liked that the author took the time for the characters to really have a conversation about this. This is one of the few novels that actually explains what pansexual means, while also acknowledging that sexuality is a spectrum, which made me really happy to read about. Jonah also talks about being aromantic and what that means for him. There was definitely an emphasis put on the fact that it does not mean that he is broken or incapable of love, which is so very important to point out. Jonah also mentions that he is not monogamous and explains it to Hallie too because she basically immediately assumes what he means is cheating, when he is talking about consensual polygamy. Now I am grateful for these barely represented identities to be so well-explained in a novel but especially as I was writing this review, I realized how much explaining there was within this novel and that most of it came from Jonah. He keeps educating Hallie about all of these different things and the author even makes a point for Hallie to point out that she would do research herself, if she had internet, but it is a really cheap excuse for the one, main person of colour in this story to do all of the explaining. “I am absolutely suffocated by the fact that I seem to have changed utterly while my parents simply have not. Nothing else has. Nothing but me.” Apart from all of those glaring issues with this book, I also just didn't enjoy the Survival part of this story much. I will say that that very well might be a me-problem because I obviously didn't really go into this novel because of that aspect but because I was interested in the author's work in general and the character dynamics. But I just ended up being bored by the Survival aspect because, while the stakes were supposed to feel high, they never really did. I also couldn't handle the stupidity of the main character and her companion leaving the group in the first place. Throughout this story I kept thinking about there being a good chance that this group had already been found while these two people are still wandering around, with absolutely no indication of where they could be for any help on the way. The really interesting aspect of this story could've been the aftermath of this traumatic event. The last part of this book was so fucking good because it dealt with the main character trying to live a normal life after her time hiking through these mountains, fearing for her life. But sadly that was truly only on the last couple of pages. The main character very clearly suffers from PTSD and depression and it is so interesting to read her inner monologue and her not understanding how everybody else can just move on with their lives when she just has been through such a life-altering event. I absolutely wish that this aspect would've taken up so much more time of this novel. Especially as this is also where the relationship between Hallie and Jonah truly becomes fascinating because they have been through this together and understand each other better than anybody else. This is where we could've really discovered the bond between them and if and how their relationships develops. “I care that, for this second, all there is is me and Jonah and a hundred trees that have no opinion, a solid dark that surrounds us, that lets us both just exist in a way that is shockingly alive. Shockingly … connected.” I will say that I liked the nature of their relationship a lot and it is something that we really do not get to see in Young Adult. They had a strong bond, were physically affectionate and had sex but this is not a Romance. I think it is so important to show that two people can have a genuine connection with each other and have a physical relationship too, without them having romantic interest in each other or falling in love. Lastly I do want to say that Hallie is 17 and in high school and Jonah is almost 20 and in college. I feel like I have become very aware of age in YA relationships and do find it important to point it out, even though I struggle to talk about it, especially as someone who did not grow up or has ever lived in the US. But I know that for a lot of people, while this age gap isn't big, it makes a huge difference that one is in college and one is in high school. There is even a conversation in the beginning where Jaxon says to Jonah “stay away from the high schooler” and while I understand that this was more like some kind of protective older sibling joke, it immediately left a bad taste in my mouth about their relationship. Overall, I finished this novel feeling disappointed and that is very much the lingering feeling after writing my review too. I feel like this had a lot of potential and I do believe that the author had good intentions but ultimately, this sadly missed a mark.. or many. Trigger and Content Warnings for underage cannabis use and drinking, blood, injury, loved one with a terminal illness, PTSD, depression. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] The Times I Knew I Was Gay is a very charming graphic memoir that many queer people will find themselves relating to. It can be hard to review a [image] The Times I Knew I Was Gay is a very charming graphic memoir that many queer people will find themselves relating to. It can be hard to review and rate memoirs but I can truly say that I just absolutely loved the way that this author told their story. The art style is super simple, almost just a doodle style, but it completely fits the way this story and the way that it is told. It was also just a super quick read and something that I can see myself picking up again and again, so I definitely want to buy a physical copy of this to just have as a coffee table book. It is just filled with so many charming, funny and relatable moments, that I know I will cherish again. This was really an absolutely incredible graphic memoir that I would highly recommend. As far as memoirs go, it is very easy to read and could be a good entry into the genre, especially if you are generally a fan of graphic formats. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “We’d done everything together since we were ten years old. I couldn’t imagine life any other way. I’d never wanted to imagine life any[image] “We’d done everything together since we were ten years old. I couldn’t imagine life any other way. I’d never wanted to imagine life any other way.” The Secret of You and Me is a sapphic adult romance that tackles some very serious topics and issues, all packed into a beautiful second-chance romance. This story revolves around two women, Nora and Sophie, who fell in love when they were teenagers but couldn't be together due to the prejudices in their small hometown in Texas. When Nora, after 18 years of being away, comes back into town for her father's funeral, the old stories of what happened start to get unravelled and Nora and Sophie have to navigate being in each other's lives again. I will say that I have read less sapphic adult romances than I would like but the ones that I have read, were mostly more on the rom-com spectrum. And while I absolutely love getting a sapphic rom-com, this novel tackled some more serious topics and I very much appreciated that. It is hard to really talk about the in-depth aspects of this novel without giving too much away, as I do think that this is the kind of novel that really works best if you go into it knowing as little as possible, especially because a lot of things that happened 18 years ago only get slowly revealed throughout the story. “I didn’t realize until I saw you at Mel’s that you’ve held my heart in the palm of your hand all these years. Right now, I’m offering you my heart, Sophie. My soul. Can you promise me a future? ” We get to read from both Nora's and Sophie's point of view in this novel, which works incredibly well and I found their voices to be easily distinguishable. While Nora and Sophie grew up in the same town, they end up having very different experiences, due to Nora leaving town, and so it was very interesting and important for this novel to feature both of their perspectives. Sophie has known for a while that she is a lesbian but only really confronts this feeling when Nora returns to town. She is married to a man and they have a daughter, who she loves very much and is really the main reason that she is with her husband. This was easily my favourite aspect of this novel and one that I thought was handled with incredible nuance and care. Seeing Sophie's journey with her sexuality is powerful and so important to portray. We see some flashbacks of her realizing that she is gay and that, while she can recognize her husband is an attractive man, she is not actually attracted to him, but that she still loves him and their daughter. But only in the course of this novel does Sophie actually confront these feelings for the first time and talks about it and comes out to people too. This novel manages to shine a light on the experiences that many lesbians go through. Being with men, questioning their feelings and attraction towards them and even going as far as marrying and having kids with them. And I love that this novel showed that there can be reasons why lesbians have sex with men that have nothing do with their attraction to them or enjoying or wanting it. It doesn't make them any less gay if the reasons are something like protecting themselves (from being outed, for example) or compulsory heterosexuality. Seeing a woman in her mid-30s come to terms with her sexuality and finally realizing that she has a right to truly be who she is and to live happily out as a lesbian, even with having been with a man for a long time, was so good to see. Sophie is a recovering alcoholic and this is a topic that gets talked about a lot in this novel as well. We get flashbacks of how Sophie and her family realized that she has an alcohol addiction and decided to go to an AA meeting and her sponsor is a very present side-character in this story. “My body was barraged with tiny explosions of desire and, deep down, I grieved for all the years this had been missing from my life, that Sophie had been missing. I wanted her as I’d never wanted before, and when our lips met, I fell into her.” On the other hand, Nora has lead quite a different life. When she left her hometown, she joined the military and has PTSD due to it. Nora definitely talks about her life in the military and how it has shaped her. And living in DC, she has lived a life as an openly bisexual woman. She is in an open relationship with a woman called Alima, who is a closeted Muslim lesbian, married to a man. There was a paragraph where Nora talked about what identifying as bisexual means to her and I very much enjoyed the discussion on how this is a label that, while it has one general definition, still will mean something different to the people identifying with it. I will say that in this conversation, Nora said that to her it means "enjoying connections with both genders" and I honestly never thought I would ever have to read the term "both genders" again. Genders outside the binary exist and even if this was a small part, it is very disappointing for a queer novel to not acknowledge that! “It’s good to see being in the military didn’t turn you butch." "Depends on your definition of butch. One definition, my personal favorite, is being able to kill a man with your bare hands. In that regard yes, the military turned me butch."” The relationship dynamics in this novel are all complicated and messy and I think that it is very important to know that a lot of this novel has (grey-area) cheating. I know that this is an aspect that is an absolute no-go for a lot of people and so I definitely find it important to mention that this is a topic that is very present in this book. But again, everything in this novel is handled with a lot of nuance and care and this not an element that is used as some sort of shock-factor. There is a lot of history between all the characters involved in this story. In some ways I did think the ending was quite easily resolved. The book did a lot of good, unpacking all kinds of different things all throughout it, and the ending almost felt a little too convenient, ignoring a lot of the issues that are still present, especially considering the overall tone of the book. That said, this didn't hinder my enjoyment, as all sapphics deserve happy endings, especially when it is way too often taken away from us, as this story perfectly portrays. Plus, books that are marketed as Romance, especially if they are queer too, should always have Happily Ever Afters! “Because I want to be with the woman I love, the only person I’ve ever loved. I want to feel your skin against mine, to be reminded how beautiful making love can be when you’re with someone who you want to absorb into your very being because the thought of ever being without them fills you with sense of despair so complete, so bottomless, that you’re sure you’ll never smile, or laugh, or feel whole again. ” Now, while I loved this story so very much, I do want to point out that it is not ownvoices. The author does not identify anywhere on the LGBTQIAP+ spectrum and in the acknowledgements the author talks about the love story between these women coming together as she wrote it, with no initial intention to make this a sapphic romance. I read an interview with the author and it very much seems like the author is in one way acknowledging that the process of falling in love is not different just because of the genders involved, while also being very aware of the individual struggles that same-sex couples will go through. I am also glad to hear that the author will be donating 10% of her royalties to the It Gets Better Project. While none of these things influenced my personal opinion or enjoyment of this book (and I had no idea prior to reading it), I do find it important to point all of this out, so that every reader going into it is aware of this. I definitely wish that especially a storyline like Sophie's would've been written by an ownvoices author but from what I have read, both as far as interviews and the book itself, the author took so much care in writing this story and I do think it is well done, to the point where I am truly in awe of how well this was written, considering it is none of the author's own experience at all. But at the end of the day, I wanna leave the decision to every reader themselves and that is why I thought it important to mention this. “I pulled her to me and kissed her, pouring into her every bit of admiration I had for her generous heart, gratitude for her courage, and hope for our future. ” Overall, this was a very intense reading experience for me and I think that the trigger warnings and general tough topics of this novel should not be underestimated. While this book made me very happy because of the representation and themes involved, it was also not an easy read. But if you can handle the themes and topics, I absolutely recommend this story. It was really beautiful to read about these two women finding their way back to each other and finally getting the happy ending they deserve. The Secret of You and Me is a novel that I will carry in my heart for a long time. Trigger and Content Warnings for PTSD (after military service), loss of a loved one, homophobia (including physical violence due to it, mentions of/being threatened with conversion therapy and homosexuality being called a mental illness), biphobia (immediately challenged), alcohol abuse, cheating, racism, chronically ill loved one, sexual harassment. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] This anthology really did a lot for me.. but sadly not what I think it was supposed to do. Instead of making me excited for a vampire renaissan [image] This anthology really did a lot for me.. but sadly not what I think it was supposed to do. Instead of making me excited for a vampire renaissance, it kinda made me hope we actually never get one. I went into this anthology expecting to see a whole lot of identities portrayed in vampire stories that we haven't gotten before. I was looking forward to seeing vampires of colour, queer and genderqueer vampires, fat vampires, disabled vampires. And while we definitely got some of that, I feel like this anthology could've done so much more and could've been even more inclusive. Plus, I was disappointed by not all the aspects being ownvoices. For an anthology that called itself a "revolution on page", I just expected more. I also thought that this anthology was very much lacking when it comes to exploring generally new ideas for the world building and mythos around vampires. I definitely go into this in my thoughts on the individual stories but only a couple of these stories actually satisfied my thirst (ha) for seeing vampires like we have never really seen them before, for example how they deal with social media and use modern technology as an advantage. The possibilities are endless here but were not really used. And what this anthology showed quite well (very much by accident) was the fact that YA and vampires is a really tricky topic. A couple of years ago, nobody batted an eyelash at a teenager having a relationship with a 200-year old vampire but things have (thankfully) changed and we have become more aware of this. After I immediately noticed that this would be an issue when I read the first short story, I honestly ended up ignoring this for the rest of the anthology, kind of thinking "oh well, that's just how it is with vampire stories".. but that's really not how it should be. And as Melanie pointed out, there was a grooming aspect in the second-to-last story, that I honestly didn't even consider because, again, I was kinda just going into all the stories ignoring age. But it really just drove home that there are issues with the way vampires are often portrayed in YA. Some stories were able to avoid this for different reasons but it still made me very aware of this issue in general! Below you fill find my individual thoughts and ratings for all the short stories. I definitely enjoyed some more than others, but at the end of the day, I have a hard time recommending this anthology and even a lot of the stories I enjoyed had issues. I will say that my highlight of this entire anthology was for sure Samira Ahmed's story "A Guidebook for the Newly Sired Desi Vampire", combining all the elements that I wanted from the stories in this anthology. “You’re already hungry, every young girl I’ve ever met has been hungry—that makes the transition easier. You know how to live with hunger. And anger—Seti is right about that. Not just any anger, not old masculine anger, sharpened with toxicity, but true anger, the kind that fills you up like a light.” Seven Nights for Dying by Tessa Gratton ⭐⭐⭐ This was a super fun way to start the anthology but nothing more for me. I liked that it had a queer main character (ownvoices) and we got a tiny glimpse into how becoming a vampire can be useful for a trans person but other than that this story didn't really wow me in terms of the vampire aspect, even if the author tried to do something new with the element of the main character having six days to decide if she wants to become a vampire. Mirrors, Windows & Selfies by Mark Oshiro ⭐⭐ This just felt really unresolved? I very much enjoyed the idea and the way this story was done, it definitely added a refreshing aspect. But at the end of the story I just kinda stood there and thought to myself what the point of this story was.. even though it was kind of a long story, I felt like the confrontation at the end was barely there. This felt like a story that was building up to something that we never got a pay-off for. The House of Black Sapphires by Dhonielle Clayton ⭐⭐⭐⭐ I loved the atmosphere and feeling of this story. Dhonielle Clayton took a lot of time to describe the surroundings and I appreciated and loved that so very much. I found every page of this story super intriguing and was really craving more by the end of it.. and not only because the ending was so very open ended. This definitely had potential to be another favourite of this entire anthology but not gonna lie, the ending ruined it, as it felt like the author gave us a mystery without actually knowing herself what the mystery way gonna be. This was still a great story overall though and it is ownvoices for Black representation. “Bea’s heart lifted, the hum of mischief lingering right beneath the brown of her skin, and her incisors elongated, ready to bite, ready for mischief.” River by Rebecca Roanhorse ⭐ I honestly can't really sort my feeling on this story. I just had lots of what the fuck moments while reading this but not because things were so exciting but just because I was kinda wondering what the fuck the main character was thinking for most of it. Also I didn't really get the appeal of cowboy vampires, if I am completely honest. So this was just not a great reading experience for me whatsoever and mostly just left me shaking my head. This had a Native (ownvoices) and gay main character. Senior Year Sucks by Julie Murphy ⭐⭐✨ Not to be greedy but while I loved that this had a fat main character who is a vampire slayer, I really wish we would've gotten a fat vampire in this anthology too. But I am pointing this out as general criticism of the anthology, not for this story or Julie Murphy in particular. This story wasn't bad but didn't really stand out either. I liked it more than a lot of the other other stories but that's sadly more due to the fact that I just didn't like the other stories very much and this one was just more enjoyable to read than others, as I like Julie Murphy's writng in geeneral. Apart from it being queer and having a fat (both ownvoices) main character, it didn't really do anything special. The Boy and the Bell by Heidi Heilig ⭐⭐⭐✨ I very much enjoyed reading this story but the vampire element wasn't exciting or new enough for me personally. Plus, this main character was a trans man, and as far as I know, Heidi Heilig is not trans. In an anthology like this, where it is really supposed to bring voices and stories into the vampire genre that we haven't heard before, it is really sad that the only trans main character is not written by an own-voices author. “But as he stands there, he can feel his heart beating—that powerful organ, the seat of the soul at his center. The thing that tells him what and who he is. A man. And a doctor. And he aims to save lives, not suck them dry.” In Kind by Kayla Whaley ⭐⭐⭐⭐ oof, this was an intense but really well done story. This is the kind of story that I had really hoped this anthology would consist of. It is about a disabled main character who gets turned into a vampire and the author took a lot of care in writing about the physical changes because of that. I really like the format with some news articles and the ending of this story was so good. This was one of the few short stories in this anthology that actually felt like a well rounded story. And it is an ownvoices! It does feature some ableist language and potentially triggering content in the beginning (the main character gets murdered by her dad, who portrays it as an assisted suicide) but it all gets challenged and the story as a whole has a very strong message against that. A Guidebook for the Newly Sired Desi Vampire by Samira Ahmed ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ THIS! WAS! SO! GOOD! It is a story that differs from the way it is approached and written compared to the other stories in this anthology AND it does something actually really exciting and new with the element of vampires, talking about how they would use modern technology as an advantage. So far I have not finished a story in this anthology and thought to myself “wow, I really loved this, this was so fascinating to read” but this one really did it for me. And as the title says, it is about Desi vampires, which is an ownvoices aspect (THE DESI ONE, NOT THE VAMPIRE ONE (at least not that I know hehehe)). “Time marches forward even if you’ve stopped. Where once you might have felt surrounded, at times suffocated, by your noisy, irritating, nosy, beautiful, loving family, now you are alone. No longer human. Reviled and misunderstood by many. But you are not unloved. You are here. And so are we. We see you. We believe in you. You are enough.” Bestiary by Laura Ruby ⭐ Oh well. While a lot of the stories in this left me kinda confused and disappointed and just generally wanting MORE, this one I just fully disliked. It was not well written, in a way where I was struggling to follow along or understand what was going on. I appreciate the idea this was based on but that is about it. Plus this tried to tackle quite a lot of issues all at once but absolutely did not have enough time to really explore any of these very serious issues. While this anthology as a whole didn't wow me, this was easily the biggest disappointment of the entire anthology. Vampires Never Say Die by Zoraida Córdova & Natalie C. Parker ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ This to me was another perfect example of what I would've wanted the stories in this anthology to be. This was written from two point of views, with one of them being an Ecuadorian girl (ownvoices). I thought this was written in a way that was super compelling and I was very invested all throughout it. What I really loved though, was that this talked about how vampires would use social media and I liked that this was a world in which there were rules established for the vampires. But as mentioned above, there was a grooming aspect to this story, so be aware of that going into this. First Kill by Victoria Schwab ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ It's no secret that I love Victoria Schwab and I tried to go into this as neutral as possible, even a little bit nervous that I wouldn't enjoy it based on the rest of this anthology. But this was such a pleasant reading experience for me overall. And that definitely has to do with the fact that I just really love Victoria Schwab's writing, so I just immediately felt drawn in by this story. But I also loved what Victoria Schwab did with the vampires being a generational thing and there being a "First Kill" (with funny parallels). Plus, this was sapphic (ownvoices) and definitely played with the enemies to lovers trope. I will say that, similarly as with Heidi Heilig's story and the non-ownvoices aspect, this was the only other story besides Dhonielle Clayton's that had a Black main character and that aspect was not ownvoices. “Jules, who tastes like summer nights, and thunderstorms. The crackle of ozone and the promise of rain. It is one of Cal’s favorite things.” Overall, what I wanted from this is that it would leave me wanting more vampire stories and while I definitely saw potential in some of these, I am now actually rather nervous about picking up any new vampire books in the future. Buddy read with Melanie ♥ Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “I guess grief is like that: the banshee patiently waiting in the many-halled house of your mind, so quiet in certain moments, until yo[image] “I guess grief is like that: the banshee patiently waiting in the many-halled house of your mind, so quiet in certain moments, until you turn a corner and see how it takes up rooms and rooms, cracking their floors and windows with its volume, its weight.” White Fox is a novel that started out very intriguing and promising for me but eventually lost me along the way of unraveling the mystery. To be fair I think there was a problem with me expecting a Thriller more so than a Mystery so I kept waiting for the story to pick up but that just wasn't really the case. This story is a slow unraveling of the mystery about the main characters mother and her disappearance more so than it is a novel that keeps you on edge and that was kinda what I had expected going into this. “Everyone stares at her when she arrives, then softens into the space around them, like watching her hasn’t made them jealous, competitive, or wary. Watching her has taken them out of themselves for a minute, transported them into her world, where she pads around, full of verve and viv, and utterly carefree. It’s a lie, but it’s more beautiful than many truths.” I also think that it was incredibly hard to distinguish between the point of views of the two sisters and that was even the case when I switched to the audiobook halfway through the novel, even though the characters had different narrators. I had hoped that it would become easier to tell them apart as the story progressed, just by learning more about them, especially because they had very different, easy to distinguish personalities. But sadly you could not really tell that from their inner monologue and I think that both of these characters could've been very intriguing to read about, if only they hadn't read so similarly. “I’d only ever depended on journals to hold my deepest, darkest secrets (and depended on Tai to read them without permission). I’d only ever depended on myself to write through my thoughts. Imagine a friend—who wasn’t blood bound to you—who knew them all and still loved you. Imagine a significant other, who would only want you all the more.” There is really not much more that I can say about this novel. I enjoyed the first third but eventually realized that I wouldn't really get much out of this and I had issues focusing and paying attention because I simply lost interest about halfway through. I don't think that this is a bad novel by any means, it just wasn't for me. I think that the way the story is told and the inclusion of actual parts of the script of "White Fox" make this story a lot more fascinating, and there is a lot of really interesting elements in this but I just never really got invested in the characters and because of that, had trouble staying invested in this story in general. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “Now my heart is with a girl in a coffin in the ground. But that girl wanted me to be better, she wanted my heart to be in it, so I cou[image] “Now my heart is with a girl in a coffin in the ground. But that girl wanted me to be better, she wanted my heart to be in it, so I could keep running with her. So for her, I’ll try.” Who I Was With Her is an incredibly powerful YA Contemporary about grief and figuring out what you want from life. This story is about 17-year old Corinne, whose girlfriend, Maggie, suddenly dies in a car accident. But because both girls were still in the closet, nobody knew that they were in a relationship and so we follow Corinne as she tries to deal with this loss while nobody knows what Maggie meant to her. So as you can tell from this synopsis, this is a very hard-hitting novel. The tone of this book is overall rather sad and melancholic and it is definitely not an easy read, so for sure be in the right headspace when going into this novel. But it is also a very powerful read, that turns a devastating experience into a journey for Corinne to focus on herself and figure out what she really wants from life. “I start to run down the hill, push myself as hard as I can. Running down this hill doesn’t feel quite like flying, not when I’m trying to pace myself, but it’s sure damn close. I just hope my wings don’t burn up in the sun.” The grief depicted in this book is incredibly well done. Corinne feels like she no longer knows who she is without Maggie and she has trouble really defining for herself what not only the relationship but also this grief means for her when she can't even talk about it with anyone or be open about the way she is feeling. There is also a lot of guilt that Corinne deals with. Whenever she feels a second of happiness or she is laughing with friends, she immediately has thoughts about how she can't believe she forgot about Maggie and her grief so easily. And there is a lot of looking back to her relationship with Maggie and wondering about the way she behaved, how she should've reacted differently sometimes or certain things that she didn't know about Maggie. All those aspects add to a very nuanced and realistic depiction of grief. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be the girl she saw me as. I loved her, I loved her, I loved her. I don’t know who I am without her. She wanted me to be all these big, grand things; she had these dreams for us and—That’s not me. I am not out and proud; I am scared out of my mind. Maggie wanted, so I didn’t have to.” The only person who knew about Corinne and Maggie's relationship was Maggie's brother, Dylan. They have a really messy but interesting relationship in this book too and you can always feel all the anger and sadness from the grief flowing into their conversations. But at the same time, you can also see how they both know they are two of the people who knew Maggie best and they definitely bond over that way more than they ever have before her death. Dylan is also the one who introduces Corinne to Elissa, Maggie's ex-girlfriend. Now this is a storyline that honestly feels a little bit questionable in parts but ultimately also offers a lot of realistic aspects. Dylan hopes that Corinne can find some comfort with Elissa, as they have dated the same person and can lean on each other.. and they do, which quickly turns into there being some chemistry between the two. This all happens not too long after Maggie's death and throughout the book you are definitely questioning the nature of these feelings. I felt like this aspect was handled okay and was very much just another part of Corinne's grieving process but I also wish it would've been explored more and especially sooner in the book. Especially the power dynamic between the two was off sometimes. Corinne is 17 and still goes to high school while Elissa is 19 and at college and Elissa also reads older than 19 to me personally. On top of that, she was definitely placed in this book as someone that Corinne could lean on for support while dealing with her girlfriend's death. While I understood where Corinne's attraction and thoughts about Elissa came from, I really would've wanted for Elissa to be more of a sensible and responsible person in this scenario. Obviously she is also still quite young and grieving too and you can tell she has her doubts about this whole situation sometimes but I wish it would've been on-page a little bit more, especially when it feels like, again, her purpose in this book was to help Corinne with her grief. It just made me feel weird and slightly uncomfortable about their dynamics sometimes. “I thought I didn’t have more tears left but I guess I do, because I’m crying into her shirt, because I don’t want her to lose me, either. I don’t want to be lost. ” This story also very heavily deals with Corinne's family relationship. Her parents are divorced and her mother struggles with alcoholism. While the divorce was a while ago, we can still see Corinne struggle with it and especially feeling like her dad just abandoned her mum and her alcohol issues, which Corinne now has to deal with herself. Apart from the obvious sapphic storyline and Corinne being bisexual, we also have an asexual side-character, Julia, who figures out that she is asexual and finds this label for herself throughout the story. I thought that it was a really well-done element and showed that this is an aspect that can be easily packed into a side-storyline, while still being done with care. In general, the friendship between Corinne and Julia, who is her best friend, was a really interesting and nuanced aspect of this book too. Their friendship definitely suffered in the past year because Corinne spend so much time with Maggie and also could never tell Julia what she was doing and so that definitely created a rift between the two. Within this book, they find their way back together and I very much liked seeing their development throughout. They also had a short but important discussion about privilege, as Julia is a woman of colour, as is her boyfriend, but I think there is no description beyond Julia having "deep brown skin". On top of all that, this book obviously also has a huge focus on coming out and talks a lot about how different circumstances can really influence your experience with coming out. All the actual on-page coming out processes are super good experiences and show that it is also different for everyone but there are definitely discussions in this book that are quite tough when it comes to other people pressuring you into coming out or making you feel not valid for being scared to do so. I think that it was a well-done aspect and the discussions were always nuanced, where you could understand everyone's POV but I definitely think that in part it very hard to read. “This is my coming out. One person at a time. No big statement, no grand gesture. Only people I want to tell. Why should I come out the way everyone else wants me to?” I also very much enjoyed the form of storytelling. We go back and forth in time, to when Corinne and Maggie met or had their first kiss and then back to the current times. This worked perfectly for this kind of book! Plus, all the chapters, but especially the ones in the past, where super short, which is honestly my favourite kind of chapters. This book also talks about Corinne getting her period and masturbating and there is a sapphic sex scene (with an emphasis on consent) that is not explicit but still makes it very clear what is happening, which are all elements I am always glad to see in YA. “I have stopped counting how long it’s been since she died. She deserves to be remembered, not measured by the days of my grief or how long it’s been since she left. She deserves to be remembered for who she was.” Overall, this book just deals with so many different things, so many messy characters and relationships but I enjoyed reading about it all so much. There is a lot of guilt-tripping and forcing people to do stuff and not accepting what people want and changing who you are or what you want for another person.. but after finishing the novel you are left with a sense that all these characters have learned from their mistakes and really developed as people. And that, ultimately, is all that I wanted as I was reading the book. The aspects are very nuanced and I am deeply impressed with how many topics were packed into this short Contemporary novel. If you can handle the tougher themes within this book, it definitely comes with a huge recommendations from me. Trigger and Content Warnings for loss of a loved one, car accident (off-page), grief alcoholism, underage drinking/alcohol abuse. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] A Song Below Water is a very interesting look at misogynoir and presents its themes in an incredibly powerful way but sadly lacks any sort of w [image] A Song Below Water is a very interesting look at misogynoir and presents its themes in an incredibly powerful way but sadly lacks any sort of world building for the fantastic elements within this book. “I'm not a monster because I live in a world that gives me impossible choices.” I feel like there is this impulse to say “this book is very timely” but really, this book only shows that it is something that is ALWAYS timely, outside from the “trends” and whose death by police brutality is currently making news. Black Lives ALWAYS matter. Black women's lives ALWAYS matter. And reading this book over a month after its release, is quite frankly an interesting experience. When it came out, social media was full of #blacklivesmatter... a month later you'll find the odd post or two on most people's timelines. This story is always timely and it will always be relevant until something seriously changes. And seeing this book come out at the time that it did and then reading it a month later, all seen in the context of this world and its happenings, is definitely an experience. But this novel specifically shines a light on misogynoir and the treatment of Black women in the Black Lives Matter moment, how they are often excluded from the movement as a whole and their stories are not shared as loudly or create the noise that the stories about Black men do. “All the things I’ve ever wanted to say, I want to say now, even though there’s very real opposition. Even though I don’t know how it will end. Even though the cops are wearing siren-canceling ear plugs. Because they’re wearing body armor, too, like every protest before. They’re always dressed for battle against us; now they just customized their gear.” I really enjoyed both Tavia and Effie as characters but their friendship is what especially stood out to me. It is such a wonderful story on found family and the bond between the two characters is incredibly strong. I think that apart from the main theme, this is truly the most powerful element of this story. The characters occasionally use ASL to communicate with each other and it was great to see this represented in the novel, even if neither of the characters is hard of hearing. I will say that sometimes I had an issue distinguishing between the voices of the two main characters. I had started reading this as an ebook but found myself having issues getting into it, so I ended up listening to the audiobook. I very much enjoyed the narration and it was helpful that the two characters were voiced by two different narrators but I still had issues telling them apart in parts because their inner monologue basically read the same. The biggest issue I had with this book was that there was no explaining of any of the fantastical/mythological elements. This is a book that takes place in our world but it has sirens, gargoyles, sprites and what not and these elements just never really get explained nor does the connection between them and how they fit into this world. We are thrust into this magical world, that is definitely fun, but it kinda felt like this elements were just randomly put in place, more than actually inserted within the story. The sirens were an amazing allegory for the misogynoir but I just had an issue understanding all these different elements, how they exist in this world but especially how all of them are connected. From the story it was very clear that they WERE in some way but the novel just lacked in giving me any context. “The fear gets quiet, but it doesn't disappear, and that might be what sets us apart. When we smile, or we dance, or we march, or we win, it isn't because we didn't have a reason to be afraid. It isn't because the uncertainty is gone. It's because we did it anyway. Because we cannot be exterminated.” Overall I definitely think that A Song Below Water is a powerful and important story. I feel like it totally could've benefited from being a little bit longer and taking more time on explaining the mythological elements, but the themes of this book are still loud and clear. Trigger and Content Warnings for police brutality and racism. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “These mages put too much stock in their songs. They never notice how much you can say in silence. ” 3.5 stars. Ruinsong is a novel [image] “These mages put too much stock in their songs. They never notice how much you can say in silence. ” 3.5 stars. Ruinsong is a novel that really draws you in with its intriguing magic system and having a really refreshing take on some familiar YA Fantasy themes. Ruinsong is set in a world with mages whose most powerful tool is their voice. Singing is their way of casting spells. One of our main characters, Cadence, is such a mage. She is employed by the queen to torture the noble people and make them compliant. The other POV we follow is Remi, a noblewoman and old childhood friend of Cadence's. She is one of the few nobles who really sees through the queen's scheme and starts rebelling against the sytsem. When Remi suddenly becomes the queen's prisoner because her family is suspected to be involved in the rebellion, her and Cadence get reunited and Cadence starts questioning her upbringing and loyalty to the queen. “Others around us begin to chant their thanks as well. Praise be to our most gracious, merciful queen, who has healed us, who has reminded us once again of our place, who keeps our country safe. How can they thank her? The queen is a monster, with a menagerie of torturers at her beck and call.” I absolutely loved the magic system and it was for sure the stand-out element of this novel for me. Just the idea itself, of the magic being cast by singing, is something that I found so very intriguing. I loved reading Cadence's chapters and seeing how the magic works and how you are attuned to certain things as a corporeal singer. It really seemed like the author put a lot of thought into the magic system, as it was describe very detailed. I did feel like we didn't learn too much about the world itself but it was easy enough to understand. And because the magic system was so intricate, it didn't really bother me that we didn't find out too much about the world building in general. What we do find out about the world was that it had been a queendom for hundreds of years. It was also very interesting to read about the differences between the nobles, the commoners and mages. The nobels represent a more conservative society, who resist change, especially when it comes to views of gender and sexuality and they still engage in arranged marriages for political reasons. Their views are seen as outdated, especially compared to the mages, who freely get to love and marry whoever they want to and the commoners are starting to adapt that same thinking too. “If I had been born a mage, I would be free to flirt with pretty girls, and no one would judge me for it. I’ve imagined myself sometimes: strolling through the market with a mage’s badge pinned to my collar, winking at the shopgirls or seducing a fire-haired tavern wench over a mug of ale.” One of my favourite elements of this story is Cadence starting to understand that she grew up in a very controlled environment and that her magical education was always very selective. I love elements like that in a story, where a characters eyes get opened to an aspect of their own magic that had been hidden from them before and I thought that this aspect was very well executed in this story. In general I absolutely loved reading from Cadence's point of view and finding out her story. Even with being loyal to the queen, she questions her ways and doesn't want to be a singer that tortures the people. She sees herself in a position where her magic is still the best option for the folk because her healing powers are so strong too. I thought that Cadence was a very nuanced, complex and interesting character to read about. “Madam Guillard didn’t once mention that there were spells I could learn, even when I ran to her sobbing after Ren had hexed me. She always told me it was impossible to block. Has my tutor, my mentor, left me vulnerable by choice?” There is a romantic storyline between Remi and Cadence and it is basically a childhood friends to enemies to lovers romance. I will say that their relationship didn't really stand out to me much. Maybe it was because they already knew each other as children and so I felt like I missed out on their development and didn't feel attached to their friendship or romantic relationship. Their chemistry was very well written though. Apart from the queer representation, Remi is described as chubby. There is one fatshaming incident in the book but it is challenged and Remi states that she generally does not mind being called fat, as long as it is said as a fact and not an insult. “I wonder what it would be like to undo them one by one, to trace my fingers down the hollow of her spine, to follow the touch with my lips. What would her skin taste like? Would her back, so supple and firm, quiver when I kissed it? Would she arch up into my touch?” Overall, I enjoyed reading Ruinsong a lot, even though I wasn't super invested in all the elements of the story and found the ending to be anti-climatic. But this novel's magic system was one of the most intricate and intriguing ones that I have read about in a while and I would absolutely recommend it. Trigger and Content Warnings for mentions of cancer, animal death (the death itself is not on page but the scene of the main character discovering the animal is very graphic), blood, torture, vomiting. 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[image] Out Now: Queer We Go Again! Is an anthology that clearly did not learn whatsoever from the criticism of its predecessor All Out. This is an anth [image] Out Now: Queer We Go Again! Is an anthology that clearly did not learn whatsoever from the criticism of its predecessor All Out. This is an anthology that features queer stories throughout all kinds of genres but that is about where the variety with this anthology stops. I read and loved All Out but one of the biggest criticism about that anthology was that it did not feature enough different identities on the sexuality and gender spectrum and sadly this anthology was the same. Especially knowing that the first anthology was so heavily criticised for it, it feels extra disappointing to look back at these stories and realize that we still got barely any representation on the asexual and trans/non-binary spectrum and (if I am not mistaken) no representation on the aromantic spectrum whatsoever. And not only that, this story fails at intersectionality in general. I would've wanted more stories about queer characters of colour but what was almost completely missing from this anthology were queer disabled characters, characters with mental illnesses, characters with different religious beliefs and fat characters. Apart from those issues, I also just genuinely was not a fan of A LOT of these stories. And while it is normal that some stories in an anthology will be hit or miss for you, this one had so many misses and stories that I genuinely just DISLIKED, that it really to me stands out as one of the worst anthologies I have ever read. Victory Lap by Julian Winters was the story that stood out to me the most. It provided a lot of comfort and made me want to read more stuff from this author. But as a whole I cannot really recommend this anthology and I'm also really disappointed by the inclusion of Meredith Russo in this anthology, who easily still could've been cut before release. But here are my individual reviews for all the stories. Kick. Push. Coast by Candice Montgomery ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ I absolutely loved this! It was one of the shorter stories within the anthology but a very wonderful one about the fluidity of both sexuality/attraction and gender, which is something that I always deeply appreciate. What Happens in the Closet by Caleb Roehrig ⭐⭐⭐ GAYNESS AND VAMPIRES! WHAT A COMBINATION! I didn't have very many feelings towards this story, if I'm honest. I wasn't really feeling the characters or the development of the story. But it was fun... because vampires! “If there’s anything I’ve learned from my brother, it’s that I could die before my life even starts, and I like… I like kissing you. I don’t want to stop. I’m tired of being lonely.” Player One Fight! By Eliot Schrefer ⭐ that was... uh... quite the questionable experience honestly. Like genuinely I do not know what to say about this story, it like.. didn't really have much of a point and just made me cringe in several ways. Lumber Me Mine by CB Lee ⭐⭐⭐⭐ This was such a lovely story and it featured an asexual love interest! I really was super invested in this one, completely forgetting I was reading a short story and not a full length novel at some point. “Ash’s eyes are warm and brown and she’s standing close enough for Jasmine to see little f lecks of gold, and she’s so happy, right here in this moment, just the two of them smiling at each other, a moment stretching out into infinity.” Follower by Will Kostakis ⭐⭐⭐ This was a cute story! There was a lot of talk on what being romantic means and the two boys in this story shared their experiences falling in love. It wasn't anything special but I had a good time reading it. Refresh by Mark Oshiro ⭐⭐⭐ Now this was an interesting story. It features two Latinx boys meeting for the first after they've talked on a dating app for a little while and it had some important themes packed into it. I can't really say too much but while I personally wasn't the biggest fan of one of the elements, I do very much appreciated that this talked about being a guy and plus-size, which is representation that we get so little, and also how that affects your dating life. This was a story that felt really intersectional and that made happy to see. Victory Lap by Julian Winters: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ This story was about a Black gay boy trying to find a date for the winter formal and having a conversation with his dad about it and I loved it so very much. I was really invested in this character's story and his relationship with his dad and it absolutely warmed my heart. This story also mentioned a bunch of different identities (one of the side-characters is non-binary, they talked about a character potentially being bi, pan or questioning and in the conversation with the father) and while all that was very brief, I always appreciate when we get introduced to numerous labels within a story because it always makes me think that it might get readers to research those more and maybe find something that they identify with too! This was definitely one of the stand-out stories of this anthology for me personally and really made me want to check out Julian Winter's novels! “Everyone says it’s a parent’s job to protect their child, but why can’t I protect him? Why are there roles when it comes to protecting the ones we love?” A Road of One's Own by Kate Hart ⭐⭐ Oh man, this story was confusing and all over the place. I just had such a hard time keeping all of these characters apart and connect their stories to them. And this story also just felt really unnecessarily long while really not providing all that much content. Plus when I read one of the characters saying she is pansexual but she just tells everyone she's a lesbian because people don't know the label... I just personally felt incredibly uncomfortable about this. I loved that this story featured many people of colour (Indigenous love interest, a Latinx and Korean side-character) but too much of this story made me feel uncomfortable. Seditious Teapots by Katherine Locke ⭐⭐ Another one of those stories that I am trying to appreciate because it had such an important discussion on identity and labels and pronouns plus it included anxiety and kinda potential depression rep but... I was just (once again) uncomfortable because this story was really based on someone completely overstepping their boundaries. It all ended up great and the person was just trying to be helpful but like.. YIKES IN SO MANY WAYS! Also the writing was a little bit messy, where I could barely decipher the text messages because they had no quotation marks or any other way to help you distinguish them. Keep in mind I read an ARC copy though, so hopefully changes were made. Starcrossed in DC by Jessica Verdi ⭐⭐⭐⭐ This was definitely one of my favourite stories of this anthology, I loved the setting and important message! And this one also really worked for me because while we got a full story with a cohesive ending and beginning, there is still so much left beyond this story and I really enjoy when I feel satisfied with the story while still somehow craving more. That's definitely not easy to achieve. “My whole life, I’ve been in front of cameras and crowds, representing something big, something I didn’t choose. This moment is new. Scary. But I’ve never felt more myself.” Floating by Tanya Boteju ⭐⭐ I am left a little bit confused by this story because I feel like it might've had a main character with autism but.. it's just never quite clear? And searching through the Goodreads review, NOBODY MENTIONED THIS AT ALL. So I'm saddened by the fact that this might've been a story with disability rep (it could've been ADHD as well) but it is not actually clarified on-page, which I really would've appreciated, considering this anthology features little disability rep otherwise. This story sadly didn't really draw me in in general. The Soft Place by Hillary Monahan ⭐⭐ okaaaaaaay, so.. the main character in this was high as fuck so this story was a little bit exhausting to read. It was a nice idea – describing getting high as it being the main character's soft place and I liked the message this story tried to portray too but at the end of the day, it was just a little bit too wild as far the writing goes and it ended up not being very pleasant to read. Also it kinda felt like the author was trying to include the message of this story subtly.. but at the end of it I felt more like having been hit over the head with it. But at least it was a hopeful one. A Pound of Flesh by Kosoko Jackson ⭐ I did not enjoy this story and thought it was all over the place and way too convoluted for a short story. I feel like I was supposed to be intrigued by this story but I wasn't whatsoever because the origin of the curse of the main character was never made clear. Also you will be kinda lost if you don't know Greek mythology well.. and my eye was twitching a little bit about what Athena was representing in this story. The underlying message in this was lost on me because the way it was written it really seemed like the police stood for justice.. eh. Really not a fan of this one. “My brother loves you. But caring about someone and loving someone are two very different things. Love is a powerful emotion. Just like hate, or bloodlust, or valor. My brother feels all those things. But he cares only about war.” One Spell Too Many by Tara Sim ⭐⭐ God, I was so looking forward to this story because I really like Tara Sim as a person and enjoyed her novel Timekeeper so much.. and the beginning of this story was so promising to me because I absolutely loved the concept. But honestly the writing didn't really speak to me whatsoever, it just seemed really basic and a little bit like the fanfiction that I wrote when I was younger. I also did not enjoy the plot at all because it focused so heavily on miscommunication which is honestly a trope that I am so very sick of seeing and I think in 2020 we have progressed past the use of love potions in stories, even if you enforce boundaries with it. Far From Home by Saundra Mitchell ⭐⭐ oh man, I feel like these stories have been cursed for me a little bit since Jessica Verdi's story because this was another one that I just did not enjoy whatsoever. I thought it was confusingly written in many parts and it was entirely too cheesy for me personally. I mean, I do not mind cheesy usually but when it is just a short story where I am not attached to the characters and their relationship whatsoever, it just doesn't work for me whatsoever. The best aspect about this story was that the main character was non-binary. The Coronation by Meredith Russo I had no knowledge prior to requesting this anthology that Meredith Russo would be featured in it. I skipped her short story due to the abuse allegations made against her. Once Upon a Seastorm by Fox Benwell ⭐ I literally have absolutely zero fucking idea what I just read. Like I don't even know what to say right now because I am left speechless with how.. nonsensical all of this was. I'm sure the author had a really amazing vision but sadly I did not understand what this story was trying to do whatsoever. Content Warning for this being a story about a trans boy who is pregnant! Overall, this has definitely put me off from reading any more of Saundra Mitchell's anthologies in the future, even if I enjoyed All Out. It is one thing to not like the individual stories, it is another if I feel like an anthology specifically including queer stories offers barely any intersectionality or doesn't make any effort to include more underrepresented identities. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “Every place his lips touch – my mouth, my nose, my cheek, my neck – lights up like a star in a constellation for us.” Bookish & the [image] “Every place his lips touch – my mouth, my nose, my cheek, my neck – lights up like a star in a constellation for us.” Bookish & the Beast was a very fun and enjoyable installment in the Once Upon a Con series, that to me sadly couldn't live up to its predecessors. I truly loved both Geekerella and The Princess & the Fangirl a lot and feel very invested in the Starfield world and storyline. I think where this book mostly fell flat for me was the element of fandom and especially spending time at a convention that I love so much about the other two books. While this definitely tried a little bit of a new take on bringing the Starfield universe into this series, by talking about the book series and partly taking place in a library with special Collector's Editions, it just didn't give me enough of an emotional connection to the Starfield universe itself that I became so very attached to. I immensely enjoyed some of the snippets that we would get at the beginning of chapters but sadly there were only so few of them. “Most of the time, I try not to think about it, but sometimes grief comes in waves. It laps against the sandy beach of your soul, again and again, soft and rushing and impossible to escape. She's gone, but I miss her. She no longer exists, but the words she loved still do.” While I enjoyed the characters, the one character that stood out the most to me was probably the female main character's dad. I just found none of the characters to be very interesting or compelling. I didn't dislike reading from their perspective or about them but I felt like they just weren't all that exciting to read about either. And again, Poston definitely tried to offer us a different take to the books before too, by introducing Vance, who is an actor for the Starfield series but currently taking a break from Hollywood. And while his character and journey was very different than anything we had seen before in this series, I just can't say I found his journey to be very believable OR captivating. I just simply didn't care. And the same goes for the female main character too. I feel like she put such emphasis on not just being “the girl with the dead mom” that she did end up being exactly that because I can't point out many traits about her. Again, none of these characters were dislikeable or not pleasant to read about, I just found them almost replaceable. As for representation, both main characters read as queer (stating multiple gender attraction) but they don't ever use labels. There is a non-binary side character that uses they/them pronouns and queer (one who is definitely bi) side characters. It seems like there is a Latinx side character too.. but that was never explicitly stated. Just as the characters didn't really stand out to me, the romance very much did not either and this was another really disappointing aspect for me with how much I squealed for the previous romances. Not only did I not really think the hate-to-love trope was well done but I also just found their entire development not very convincing just because I feel like we got too little of it. I barely felt chemistry, barely felt like they truly got to know about each other. We know they spend a lot of time with each other but I feel like we just didn't really get to see that at all. Where was this entire process? There just wasn't enough there for me personally. When it comes to the retelling element of Beauty & the Beast, you could definitely see the elements but they didn't stand out immensely. Some people might enjoy that, others not so much. As someone who is not a big fan of Beauty & the Beast I can't say if that maybe affected my enjoyment of this story too? I normally never pick up retellings of the story cause I am just not interested in them or the original story but for me this was different, as I already felt invested in this universe. At the end of the day I just don't really think it worked all that well as the basis for a fluffy Contemporary story like this. But I also know that this was really the project of Poston's heart and that does make me happy to know. “With him, a little of her heart leaves, but it leaves room, too. For new people. For new loves. For new impossibilities.” So all in all, while I enjoyed reading another installment in this series, it also just didn't have the same magic as the other two for me personally. Nothing about this book set it apart from any other YA Contemporary, sadly, and that was a very different experience for me with the first two books. If you're a fan of the series, it's a fun reading experience, especially with other character's cameos too, but it is really not a must-read at all. Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Netgalley in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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[image] “She felt new, fresh. She felt cleansed. From all the loathing that had been welling up inside of her. From the slow creep into the dar[image] “She felt new, fresh. She felt cleansed. From all the loathing that had been welling up inside of her. From the slow creep into the darkness. Wild Nights had saved her. Again.” This Is All Your Fault is a YA Contemporary with a really refreshing storyline, unpacking a whole bunch of different themes and topics. At the centre of this story is the indie bookstore, Wild Nights, and all the characters trying to save the store from being closed. The story starts with a bit of a wild attempt by one of the employees, Eli, to invest a whole bunch of money by buying and re-selling Jordans.. but things just get worse from there. The story is told from three point of views. We have Daniella, who is very much the employee with the most responsibility in the bookstore and can come across quite bossy. She writes poetry and publishes it on a anonymous Instagram account. Then there is Imogen, who starts this story out by shaving her head and is clearly going through some stuff. She has a Middle-Eastern heritage and is queer and while she is not diagnosed within this story, probably has depression. Finally we have Rinn, who has a super bubbly and happy exterior and makes bookish content online. She is biracial (Mexican-American and German) and has anxiety. “We pay attention to tons of things we don’t realize at the time. But they become the voices in our head anyway.” When I realized that this story was actually going to take place over the course of one day and only in this book store, I definitely felt a little bit apprehensive. I thought that it would probably make it hard to get attached to the characters and to really feel invested in their storylines. But ultimately, while reading this story, I realized that the way it is written works really well for it. You are just invested enough in the individual characters and their issues but the aspect that keeps you captivated is all these storylines coming together to tell the story of this closing bookstore. And I absolutely loved the setting of the bookstore. I think that the author did an amazing job at truly making this bookstore come to life. It was almost like it was its own character and I loved the fact that we had all of these very different characters who came together to tell its story. After reading this novel I really wish that this was an actual read bookstore that I could visit. “And when Rinn had an idea, nothing could stop her, come hell or high water—that much had always been apparent about Rinn Olivera.” One of my favourite aspects of the story is Rinn and the fact that she has a pretty huge social media platform talking about books. I feel like we have gotten so many YA stories about characters who love books and/or who are writers but I cannot remember ever reading about someone who is a "bookish influencer". It was genuinely SO MUCH FUN to read about Rinn and her creative process for making content. But this also highlighted some of the darker aspects of the bookish and author community in general. There is a storyline with a popular male author who sexually harasses one of the girls in the bookstore and we find out about him having shown behaviour like that for many years. This is of course in general an incredibly timely topic in our society but especially something that keeps coming up in the bookish sphere and I really loved that Aminah Mae Safi made this a theme in the novel because it is a very realistic, sadly all too common thing that might get talked about a lot in certain social media circles, but other than that is often an aspect that gets ignored. “The vulnerable risk everything. The powerful can just point at everything that they have amassed, as though that’s an argument against potential injustice and misbehavior.” There is also all the mental health issues that the characters deal with. Apart from the storyline of the closing bookstore, this is truly the main theme of this story for me. I personally really liked the portrayal of these issues because they showed how different things can manifest in people and how different situations can trigger people. There were some situations where the characters messed up and didn't treat people well because of their bad mental health, which should obviously never be an excused, but it all gets unpacked and talked about and I very much enjoyed that. In general while I truly didn't feel very attached to these character because of the nature of this story and the short time span, I just genuinely adored the way these characters were portrayed as flawed but willing to learn and grow. Some of these characters are truly unlikeable but it doesn't make them any less enjoyable to read about. “It was understanding what sadness was—sometimes more than a feeling—and that it was a thing she could almost taste, could almost touch at times, it was so real.” I will say that I wasn't the biggest fan of the relationships between the characters and how they developed. This was genuinely the weakest aspect of this story for me and I think that this is definitely an aspect that suffers if you write a story that just takes place over the course of one day. Especially when you think about the fact that these characters have known each other and worked together for a while, a lot of the development that happened in this story just seemed like a very quick change of heart. It definitely makes sense that a huge event like a bookstore closing would bring people closer together but it still seemed quite a lot for just one day. I think that you have to suspend your disbelief a little bit with the relationships in this book. “Off camera, three girls were burying their secrets. Maybe one day they’d dig them up. Maybe they wouldn’t. But the city would guard their memories, regardless. Waiting, until they were ready.” Overall, I had a really good time reading this story. I don't think it is anything that will stay with me for a long time but there is also nothing that I actively disliked about it. I definitely recommend it if you want to read a novel that is set in a bookstore. Trigger and Content Warnings for sexual harassment, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, smoking (vape). Instagram | Blog | Booktube Channel | Twitter I received an ARC through Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review! ...more |
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