Sara-Jayne Makwala King

“Even though I had been in recovery for nearly two years, I was still an addict and the denial in me was still strong. I could refuse to see something even when it was in front of my nose, and to give too much space to my concerns about Enver left me with a tight sensation in my chest that got in the way of my ability to exhale. It had taken me 29 years to find a love like this, and I wasn’t about to give it up for something that might not even happen. For the most part, I pushed my doubts to the back of my mind and even (subconsciously, I think) doubled my own recovery efforts as if that might ensure there was enough healing to share between the two of us. Recovery by proxy.”
― Sara-Jayne Makwala King, Mad Bad Love