In all of the madness stood two addicts: one severely addicted to alcohol and drugs, and the other just as addicted to the addict…In my sickness—the sickness of this toxic love addiction—his threats were the only words I wanted and needed to hear. In my world, Ronny’s words meant that he still LOVED me.
Ashlee Donohue’s first home was a tin shack on the banks of the Hat Head creek. A proud Aboriginal woman from the Dunghutti nation, born and raised in Kempsey NSW, Ashlee was determined to keep her family together, despite the unforgivable acts and consequences, to ultimately give them what she never had—the presence of their father.
Because I Love Him is a privileged insight into strong and sacred family ties, and the intricacies of relationships and expectations within urban Aboriginal communities. It is a personal account of love, addiction, motherhood, domestic violence, and the impact on women, children and families.
Thank you for sharing your story. Many trigger warnings come with this book but I think it’s so special when people share their story. You’re so strong!
This was hard reading for so many reasons, least of all because I could not relate to any of her experiences. What I drew from it though was just how complicated domestic violence relationships are, especially for First Nations people. The cycle that repeats itself generation after generation will take a long time to break. But, hopefully with time and support and understanding this cycle of violence will change. I will say that I did feel some of the editing of this book didn’t hit the mark but the writing did feel very real and authentic.